it's more than just tears.it's tears and rain.

scribbles.

2008-06-25T09:33:00.000-07:00

So I've been on a preee-tyy long hiatus.
Like I mentioned in my past entry,still am quite averse to the idea of updating my blog religiously.
And it's not as if I have any complaints.Besides, to blog about the mundane and trivial is just a frivolous waste of energy,no?
Especially when my communications course is writing-centric, and churning 3 reports/essays a month has become a sorta ritual,(KNN!), updating my blog would feel im studying overtime.

Did I also mention I've never been a computer person?Ever.
And I've always wondered how some specimens can spend hours and hours in front of their computers/laptops simply doing nothing.well ok fine, nothing productive I mean.

I'd rather head to the beach, watch a movie, put on my dancing shoes,meet my crazy girlfriends to shop/eat/bitch whatever , have a picnic (for real) and do all sorta outdoorsy stuff then stay cooped up in the room in front of my laptop.
that only spells L-I-F-E-L-E-S-S.

I understand that not all of us are entitled to the luxury of time, but for those with time on their hands,what I'm simple stating rather vociferously here is why spend a large amount of time on the computer, when you can use that time wisely and do things that are way more meaningful?for yourself or for someone?and aren't those things priceless?Share a joke with someone who's having a rough day or let an old friend know you're missin them and these can be done over a cup of coffee.Doesn't cost much, does it? Well of course, a tad bit more of effort is needed on your part.
But a li'l effort never killed anyone.

Cmon people, life is a gift.OWN IT.don't be an indolent fool and idle the day when there's a 100001 BETTER things you could be doing.Use time effectively.Use it to your best advantage.
Read a book, expand your vocab, spend time with your loved ones,make postcards for your lil cuzins,make someone smile, tell someone how you really feel,hug a friend.(and I'm not talkin virtual hugs)

Start now.You've prolly heard this one time too many but it's Better Late than Never.

Carpe Diem!

Much Loveeee Munchkins.

mydrugforthenight:Foreigner-Been waiting for a girl like you.

someone, please call 911.

2008-01-23T06:39:00.000-08:00

was chilling at vicky's place last week.
'Someone please call 911' by wyclef jean and mary j blige was on repeat mode on his playlist for an entire hour.
the song's been stuck in my head ever since.
Awesome song,that one.
Needless to say,the vocals are beyond excellent.
you listen to it on a chilly night at the beach,in your home,in the kitchen even or in the car with the windows down and you might just understand what I mean when I say its beautiful with its deep,evocative lyrics.

along with it,I crave for a glass of wine...
ahhh such sinful pleasures..to indulge on a whim.
of course,a certain presence would be a bonus,you know,to compliment the settings...

or render the atmosphere perfect more like.

hahah.
oh snap!,I'm in trouble ;p

Someone Please Call 911.

Yo what up this Wyclef with Mary J,
About to serenade this girls with my acoustic guitar,
Yo fellas having problems with your chicks,
I want you right now, To turn the lights down low,
pull your girl up next to you,
I want to sing them this song.
If death comes for me tonight girl,
I want you to know that I loved you,
And no matter how tough I would appear,
Only to you I would reveal my tears.
So tell the police I ain't home tonight,
Messing around with you is gonna get me life,
But when I look into your eyes, man,
You're worth that sacrifice, yeah, yeah,
If this is the kind of love that my mom used to warn me about,
Man I'm in trouble, I'm in real big trouble,
If this is the kind of love that the old folks used to warn me about,
Man I'm in trouble, I'm in real big trouble,
I need ya'll to do me a favor. Someone please call 911,
(pick up the phone yo)
Tell them I've just been shot down,
And the bullets in my heart,
And it's piercing through my soul,
(im losing blood yo)
Feel my body getting cold,
(So cold, so cold)
Someone please call 911,
(pick up the phone yo)
The alleged assailant is five foot one,
And she shot me through my soul,
Feel my body getting cold.
(Mary:) So cold, Sometimes I feel like I'm a prisoner,
I think I'm trapped here for a while, yeah, yeah,
And every breath I fight to take,
It's as hard as these four walls I wanna break,
I told the cops you wasn't here tonight,
Messing around with me is gonna get you life, oh yeah, yeah,
But every time I look into your eyes,
Man it's worth the sacrifice,
uuhh, If this is the love that your mom used to warn you about,
Mary you're in trouble,
(I'm in real big trouble) You're in real big trouble,
(lord knows I'm in trouble)
If this is the kind of love that the old folks used to warn me about,
I'm in trouble, I'm in real big trouble,
I'm in real big trouble. You got anything to say girl,
Someone please call 911, yeah, yeah,
(pick up the phone yo) Tell them I've just got shot down,
(tell them I just got shot down) And it's piercing through my soul,
(I'm losing blood yo) Feel my body getting cold,
(So cold, so cold) Someone please call 911,
(can you do that for me)
The alleged assailant was five foot one,

And she shot me through my soul,
(and he shot me through my heart)
Feel my body getting cold,
(he didn't care, he didn't worry, he didn't wonder)
Wyclef and Mary J blige, I'm feelin you, yo, i understand, yeah, yeah

mydrugforthenight:Listen to your heart-Roxette.

come as you are.

2008-01-16T01:06:00.000-08:00

Have you ever listened to a song so remarkably special that you find yourself inexplicably connecting deeply with it?

Have you ever found a song so evocative,so remotely special that you're convinced it was written after someone had found your diary?

Have you ever had a song make you stop dead in your tracks,or caught you in the middle of something and you immediately feel this mysterious wave of sadness wash all over you?

Ahh,yes.I'm bent to believe that we all do have that one 'special' song.That one song that can awaken all senses and..suddenly we feel so alive,so raw and so vulnerable.Sometimes,that one song can remind us of our loneliness,how perplexing life is and how liable we are,as humans, to crumble in weakness and fragility at certain moments. Its rather astounding how a simple tune could suck every fount of happiness and joviality from you.How a melacholic tune could bring you to your lowest of lows and render you unstable just when you're impressioned to think you've got it all.One moment you're happy and the next moment,you're not.One moment you're on top of the world and the next moment you're thinking about the skeletons in the closet.

I've learnt to understand that we people,regardless of our position and status in society,need love.assurance.family for hope and unconditional care and friends to binge with and remind us of how precious and awesome life is.Yeh so that one song could reopen some old wounds or remind us of a damnable person or error but heck,I say shed those tears if you want to,don't hold em back cos your awesome compadres will eventually kick you in the rear and remind you that the best is yet to come.

I love you guys(you know who you are) for draggin me outta' da rut.without your merciless love and relentless understanding,heaven knows I'd be lying in a ditch somewhere.

*hugs*

(Sorry for digressing)But,this is my such song.
special enough to render me those tears.

one helluva enigmatic song...
so strange..so beautiful.

Strange And Beautiful-Aqualung.

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, I'll see.

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep
and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah... Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do, Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me,

yeah...yeah...yeah...yeah.

Love,
Me.

mydrugforthenight: Strange and Beautiful-Aqualung.

food,boys,and a wedding.

2008-01-12T04:41:00.000-08:00

I'm sure you can ascertain by now.
Yes.I am a foodie.through and through.every inch and fibre of my being can vouch for that.
FOOD,FOOD,FOOD makes the world go round.
Agreeeeed?
especially if food comes in the form of BEEF,or anything meaty for that matter.
BEEFBEEFBEEFBEEF ;)
Mmmmm.YUM.

So back to the day's events.Uncle had his wedding today.was rather hesitant on going initially.C'mon.you know how irksome weddings can get.You meet people you've never seen for centuries.You suddenly realise you've got nieces and nephews and YOU GET THIS UNPALATABLE REMINDER THAT U AINT 16 ANYMORE.The more arduous task of course would be racking ur brains to recall the names of people you're talking to.Especially,when they seem to know all about you.
Example;
Stranger :So kavitha,ur in NUS,2nd year now right?
Me: er,yeh*feigns laughter *while thinkin *thisisagamerightcosIabsolutelydunrecalluatall!*
It's not funny.In fact,its far from funny.Its NERVE-WRECKING.
and unashamedly,I'm telling you,I've been a victim of such far-from-pleasing encounters with people whom I've never met and yet they seem to be so familiar with what's happening with me .I'm forced to believe(at times) that they've planted hidden cameras all over my home.
Now thats a thought.hmmm.
Oouh,best yet,is when I slip up and my mind goes on this 'freeze' mode and I find myself not being able to even get my cousins' names right.Hey,you can't blame me that I've got an obscene number of cousins.Damn.the circle is so big,you'd think we could start a new religion.

kinda toyed with the idea of sleeping for five hours straight but decided against it when it dawned on me just how hungry of a grizzly(grumpy) bear I'd manifest into after all that hibernating.So yes.with much effort,I removed my ass from bed ,took a well-deserved bubble bath and changed into a pretty pink attire.

I was rather glad I didn't miss out on it!!Awesome decore and gorgeous candles abound.Dim lightings and splendid drapes teemed the hall. Food was good.darn good.(refer to first para).
The Brownies were simpy wiccck-ed u'all!Music was good too,it took me by surprise that they actually arranged for a DJ.He wasn't that bad too.
So yes,effort has been profoundly recognised.
Hurray!

Now for the icing on the cake!
There was this vigorous 'Bhangra' group and they performed few numbers.majorly stunned us with super awesome Ninja-Kapow kicks and swirls and turns and backflips.They did provide us with some much needed eye-candy too,so yay!

Good food,darn good-lookin boys and the most awesome-est weather.cool,windy and sooo chilly.
Aite peepz,Ima cosy up to a good read now!

LoveLoveberrymuch,
Me.

mydrugforthenight:Chris Brown,Gimme that.

Bored.Boozed.Broozed.

2008-01-11T10:13:00.000-08:00

I'll fess' up.

Numerous blogs,I've created.Cancelled plenty of accounts too,right after posting 2 or 3 entries.Short-attention span u ask?Hell,no.I've just never been one to stay committed to a blog.I mean, yeh sure its the purr-fect outlet to vent all that angst,spew some cock,and *applause* add to some mounting popularity. Or in my case, infamous-ness. but dammmit!Its no piece of cake dedicating time to a darn blog,having to update it daily while at the same time toggling a chaotic,crazy social life.
But of course,once school commences on the 14th,then that chaotic,crazy social life I once OWNED will exterminate by itself.(HINT:this is where you mofos be empathetic and shake ur heads at my pitiable state)

*WAILS*
DAMN U,NUS!WRETCHED NUS!
*stabs*

Why can't sch grant us a 3mths' break at least?After all didn't we work our butts off during EXAMS??All that sleep deprivation with only red bull and ribena as companions.Having to refrain from indulging in anime,*thinks hot ANIME Men* erases vile thoughts of ANIME men in underwear*Missing out on many many back to back episodes of Desperate Housewives,Prison Break and HEROES!All the sacrifices made,they all gotsta count for something don't they???!!
So how long of a holiday did we get in the end?
5 Muthafuckin weeks.OH WOW!INCREDULOUS!
Like seriously,the sem break wasnt long nuff for me to even plan a short trip with girlfrns or to revisit my music library.I don't believe my wardrobe got any bigger too.Snap!,I didn't even manage to clock 10 movie marathons!
Thats how effin short 5 weeks are, FYI.

Oh Boy! I sense turbulent times.

1)No more ANIME till 6 in the morning.
2)No late night msn chats/phone convos with bitchy girlfriends.*hugs pillow*=(
and *GASPS*
3****)NO MORE SLEEPOVERS/MOVIE MARATHONS/LATE NIGHT DRIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just before you launch a verbal assault on me or conjure up a nasty thought in that head of urs,
Let me just say,I aint no indolent fool.
Hell,I enjoy school sometimes.
Its ONLY the waking up to the mornings that I dread..*looks around,guiltily* Fo' real.
Doesn't help that school is approx about an hour and a half away.
NOW BEAT THAT!

*PLOPS DEAD ON BED*

**** indicates level of seriousness.

ManyMuchLove,
Me

mydrugforthenight:Bryan Adams-Everything I do,I do it for you.